my lips are dry

when people started mentioning my past,
“you used to be nice”, “you used to laugh and talk a lot”…
when they started blaming, complaining me,
“no one likes you”, “ you smell like an anti-social”…

people calculate a lot but they never understand,

people speak a lot but they never think,
people never consider,
unless you were proved sick.

yes! sir, madam, I feel unwell,
physically, objectively,
my lips are dry,
they are white, they are bleeding.

I could not gorge anymore,
for I feel pain when opening my mouth wide.
and tolerate those jokes that make me laugh,
fortunately I could still perform that stupid smile.

saliva, I thought it works but turned out by worsening,
protein, vein, adrenaline they said,
so I could not kiss too,
never mind, no one wants to kiss dry lips anyway.

will the world show mercy to dry lips,
like those being bald, or suffering aids.
will the world be angry if I tell them honestly,
the physical pain was my only concern?