記事

偶然打開那部封塵已久、中毒已深的電腦，又看了一遍舊相片。我怪自己以前拍照不夠多，許多往事都未有好好紀錄；又怪自己為何沒有相機，合照常常要人家代拍，最後又拿不回照片。

我認為拍照是最好的記事形式。拍照除了能真實地紀錄畫面，更有一項常被忽略的優點──讓紀錄行為與被紀錄的事情同步發生。

異曲同工之妙

這句說話，意思也算是淺白，不用特別解釋。以前我不太喜歡用這句話，因為我總是認為，雙數音節的句子，讀起來就是欠缺節奏感。然而，世上彷彿真的是存在這條定律──實用的東西，必定是久奉美感。我一直都找不到另一句說話，來代替「異曲同工之妙」的意思。說着說着，便產生了感情，更反而覺得它有種參差美。

〈The Shade of the Mango Tree〉（YouTube找不到正常版，只有1小時長的版本）是我從Nujabes發掘出來的。他用了這道歌的旋律，作為〈Lady Brown〉的樣本。兩首歌的主旋律非常相似，但意境卻是完全不同，可謂「異曲同工之妙」的相反。

起初便覺得〈The Shade of the Mango Tree〉充滿南美風情，後來才知道，它是南美作曲家筆下的作品。我認為，這首曲是典型的好音樂。除了旋律、伴奏和諧以外，更重要的，就是它帶有濃烈的避世情調，讓人自我感覺良好。我想，這也是和曲的命名有關的，因為要想像樹蔭，首先要有個日光的背景。想到這裏，自然便會把想像引伸到，自己也坐在芒果樹下乘涼，或是遠離麈囂、或是守株兔，反正就是會產生一種「眾人皆醉我獨醉」的自滿感。

Week 70

Full of imagination about my future. Suddenly, I feel cold because I suddenly got a fever. Suffered my first heat stroke this Friday. It was no cool at all. Don’t try it.

Can’t think of anything to write about this week. Nonetheless I especially wanted to update this blog under such circumstance.

Quite a lot of things happened this week actually. I wrote my diary. I rarely do so this year.

For the first time a began to draw a DRAWING seriously. It wasn’t done but almost. I found myself quite passionate at drawing. But I’m not good at it.

I have a habit. I use font size 28 for the title and 13 for the rest. I thought 13 looks the best in my old computer. Now I’m using a MacBook but I’m still using 13. And since the first post I have been counting the week number. This is the 70^th.

Sometimes I can’t update on Sunday. So I post a blank post and edit it later on. So the date of the post will still be on a Sunday.

Why am I writing if nobody’s reading? I know nobody is reading this. But I believe one day I will be stalked. For at least once I believe. Okay. This post is for that person.

Thank you that person.

Kept coughing when typing this.

Problem

I thought it was only a joke, that my friends laughed at me about “I have poor observing abilities.” Well, I proved that the statement is correct yesterday.

Yesterday, two friends and I returned to our secondary school. We saw students preparing for a BBQ at the playground, that I, or we, was curious about what event was going to be held. When we encounter a teacher, we asked what was the occasion of having a BBQ on a Saturday night. The teacher answered us that it was an activity of the parent-teacher association; she also said that twenty-sth teachers would be coming too. I immediately remembered of my former class teacher. So I asked, actually not expecting to get an answer, that if she would come. The teacher answered me firmly, ‘of course not! She has to take care of her baby. Don’t you know that? She had already given birth a week ago!’

夢裡看

Miss L,

最近你常在我的夢中出現。

曾經有一段時間──就是我對你朝思暮想的那段時間，我多想你在我的夢中出現。告訴你，我有一個優點，就是我懂得從夢境抽離，不會沉溺在其中。因此，我不怕在夢裡遇見你，因為我既不為此狂喜、也不會因而低落。不論是甚麼情景，夢到你，我醒來也是高興的。不要笑，因為我知道許多人都做不到。

但自連夜來所做的夢，我便開始擔心，擔心我認知中的你，會變成我在夢中看見的你。我誠然在情感上，沒有被夢境淹沒；但最近我卻發現，在理性的認知上，夢裡的你彷彿想要蠢食現實中的你。