You but not the world

Sour, bitter, astringent,
shall I blame my tongue?
Warmth, honey, looseness,
shall I thank the sun?

One day you admit your jealousy,
must not you say the world unfair.
Look now your phony modesty,
it’s you but not the world.

故我依然

上上籤結業，百感交集。

DJ史密夫先生

花了近五百大元，昨天終於收到了考評局寄來的掛號信，英文卷和地理卷到手。

先看地理卷，終於知道為何結果與預期中差別這麼大。其中一條大題目大失手，拖垮了全科成績，選擇題也發揮不到應有水準。其餘幾條大題目不過不失，只有一條勉強稱得上有點驚喜，但也遠不足以收復失地。

然後看英文卷，更加感到可惜。全科總分倍大至667分滿分後，我差最多7分便達到高一等級的cut-off，或許當時多答對一﹑兩條選擇題，也有機會了。還有，原來作文卷在210滿分中，我只差2分就有5**了。（笑）

作為失敗者的寫作

馬奎斯是寫孤獨的作家﹑赫塞是寫流浪者的作家﹑尼采是寫敵基督的作家……假如我人生將會有一位我認為是最好的作家，那會是寫甚麼的人呢﹖

中秋

不必理會每年有多少次月圓；
不用在意八月十五的月亮，
可真比七月十五的月亮要光要皎潔；
毋須抗辯新月如何比圓月漂亮；
反正我只有今天才會正視月亮。
就像只有今天我才會正視，
那一直在暗地裡發作的思念。

隨筆三

My passion

One time I was sort of in a goddam party, and around the stage there were some putrid disco music. Surrounding it was a bunch of hysteric teens dancing around. I went out. Merely because no one except the middle-ages stay in the tables. I wasn’t feel like dancing anyhow. So what I did was, I stood like a statue between them. I mean, when everybody were bouncing, shaking or whatever, I helluva stood like a statue between them, right between them, at the center.

屬於我的節日和儀式

繞啊繞，繞圈子。日月星辰繞圈子。
繞啊繞，人也繞，人也跟著繞圈子。
無先後，無彼此，春秋繞圈若輪齒。
人繞圈，愛終始，實情是在繞開始。